Growing Deeper

   It is the holiday season, but for many it is anything but" joyful or happyy"; lost jobs , sickness, turmoil, unrest and for many, a lasting loneliness.  For those  this season is not a merry one, but one of pain.    I remember in those days past ,how that deep hole of hopelessness felt. I was there, many times. I was young, and betrayed, by different circumstancs and even choices I had made that I thought would be good for me. My days were sad and I felt that I was all alone in my pain.   I did survive,  but barely.  I had actually thought of suicide. But I remembered my children, and my love for them kept me from leaving them with that legacy.   I found faith in Jesus Christ when I was so utterly lost... Or should I say,  He found me.  It had to be a God thing because nothing in me was thinking that He was going to be the Answer to my needs.    Now, looking back, I can see how He actually orchestrated many th...

 The first thing I do after waking up and brushing my teeth is trudge to the kitchen and start filling the coffeepot with water and putting coffee in the basket to brew.  After a couple of minutes I fill my cup. For some reason my coffee is never hot enough, it looks right, but as I touch it to my lips, nope...  it has the mere essence of coffee, but is not anything I would drink or offer to anyone else in that blah state. So I nuke it in the microwave for 60 seconds and voila, it is heated to that perfect temperature that smells and awakens all my senses.   Lukewarm coffee is not my cup of tea. and I would venture to say, that this is most everyone elses feeling about it too. This morning I read in Revelations 3:15-20. It is the last book in the Bible written by John. It talked about how God feels about us as believers and being "not hot or cold" but lukewarm. It is very straight forward. Lukewarm believers are distasteful to Him, and he would spit them out of his m...

 One day my husband and I were watching youtube. We do that every now and then to see news, or comedy or instructions on fixing something.  Anyway, when we did that, an array of suggestions came up. This time a sovereign citizen video came up. We wondered "what is that about?" and clicked on the video. In the video, it started out with a police officer walking up to a car that he had pulled over for a traffic violation. The driver rolled down the window and ask the officer, "Why did you stop me??"  The officer replied," you were speeding, going 50 and 35  mile per hour zone."  Then the the officer added, " I need to see your driver's license and proof of insurance please." Driver: " I don't have  to show you anything; I don't have a driver license or insurance but I don't need either one." Police officer:" Yes, you do ma'am.You need to show me your driver's license and proof insurance. It's the law....

 During 2010-2011 I was an Activities Director at an assisted living facility. In  the five years before that, I worked at the same place as a nurse/aide to the residents there. This new position came to  me when my boss personally asked me to take it, as he was hoping to incorporate a new program at this facililty.   I thought about it and decided to accept; it would be different but very enjoyable for them and for me.     I  had  quite a number of activities for the residents. Bingo, exercises, horse races, crafts, sing alongs and  Bible Study, which we had for an hour on Thursdays. The residents loved to sing hymns and read verses and answer questions.     We had one resident that never came to Bible Study. He was pretty much a loner. His daughter had remarked one time to me, she wished he would get more involved in activities because he seemed sad.   I had tried to get him to come out of his room many times a...